I hit my wall yesterday. I had been feeling fine about this whole motherhood thing until about 9 pm last night. I’m not sure what it was that made me snap, but I was thisclose to walking out of the room and just letting Kitten scream it out on our bed. I’m not sure why exactly I was so upset, but for some reason I just was. It could have been her crying as soon as I sat down to eat dinner (she was absolutely asleep before), or the fact that I haven’t had 10 minutes to knock off a decent blog post, or it could have been that I was jealous that Rob still gets to play video games while I am the primary caregiver for the baby.
Don’t get me wrong, I love this child, and I knew going in that she was going to become life for me. That I wouldn’t have any time to myself, but for some reason, I kind of snapped yesterday. I sat and cried and cried while I fed her after what seemed like I had just finished feeding her. It seemed like she had been crying all evening, and I was just so tired of the crying. I had burped her, and changed her, and tried to get her to go to sleep, but nothing was working. So I put her on the breast and she calmed down. In the end, we gave her a bottle of formula, and put her to bed.
Apparently, Kitten is psychic and knew that I needed to sleep last night, because she decided that she didn’t want to wake up until 8:30 this morning! That was over 8 and a half hours, people. I enjoyed my sleep (even though I woke up when Rob’s alarm went off, and she was kind of restless for the last 2 hours of sleep – which means that she grunts and I put in her soother and we go back to sleep for a little bit), and I even kind of had to wake her up at 8:30, otherwise she would have gone back to sleep.
I don’t think this will be a regular occurence, but it couldn’t have come at a better time.
So, I will hopefully be posting about the Christian Science Fiction and Fantasy book that I have been reading, and participate in the tour some time today or tomorrow. We’ve been reading The Legend of the Firefish by George Bryan Polivka, and I have a lot of good things to say about it. Hopefully Kitten will decide to nap, and after I’ve had a shower (because it’s been a few days again), I’ll hopefully get something down about the book. Until then, feel free to follow the links and see what the other participants are saying about the book.
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